May 6, 1994

Dear God, I’ve been avoiding thinking about Nancy and how she’s gone now. I don’t know quite how to miss her. I have this vague ache inside of me. I guess I’ve been trying to like someone else rather than miss Nancy. God, I loved her so much. Why couldn’t I keep her and love…

April 28, 1994

Father, Thank you for today. There is a quiet, sad emptiness in me. It always seems to be there to some degree or another. Sometimes I want to fill that with anyone–anyone who would be there to be held and to understand. The understanding is important. The communion that Nancy and I had was exquisite.…